If we were each given a sand bucket to show how guilty we felt on any given day, mine would often be filled to the brim. Then, I would notice that your bucket had more guilt sand than mine, and I would feel guilty; which would result in me scooping more sand into my bucket. If you also had a guilt propensity, then we could potentially spend hours wrangling over the sand in each other’s bucket.
I was wrestling through my inclinations toward guilt not long ago. I asked God, “What is the deal with me and guilt? Why do I so often feel like my guilt overshadows me?” his answer startled me into stunned, silent tears.
Your guilt is, at its root, arrogance. You are really saying that I am not big enough or holy enough or even smart enough to handle giving you the “right” discipline. You are essentially telling me that you know better than I do what you deserve. Your insistence on feeling guilty is a disguised way for you to tell me that my grace is not enough.
I claim to believe that He is good. I claim to believe that His love never ceases. I claim to believe that Scripture is God-breathed and true…all of it.
Then it’s time for me to live out what I believe…and embrace the following as my reality:
No more (self)-condemnation.
No more guilt bucket.