Change, it is a-coming! As I prepare for surgery, I will be posting only on Monday, Wednesday & Thursday in the next few weeks…unless I feel loopy enough to smuggle the laptop away from James and make y’all laugh at the outrageous, unedited and medicated reality that is Gracie on pain meds. 😉
I realized today that my humor is sometimes used as a defense mechanism.
Forgive me, dear readers.
This is hard.
It’s hard facing surgery that would not have been necessary if the correct test had been done sooner.
It’s hard knowing that I may not have miscarried had the correct test been done.
It’s aggravating to have literally no.control. over my emotions or my tears.
Humbling, hard, yet good.
The good has been evidenced in the care, the prayers, the concern, the love, and the many kindnesses that have been lavished on us. Nurses, shopkeepers, friends, and family members have hugged me, reassured me…and listened.
I, Gracie K. Harold, am about to officially “lose” the part of me that has embraced five of my children.
That fact does not change who I am.
I am God’s beloved daughter.
I am Christ’s dearly beloved bride.
I am comforted by the Holy Spirit.
I am the wife of my beloved James.
I am the mother to all 8 of our precious children.
I am the wife of a college student.
I am passionate about justice, survivors, mercy, and LOVE.
My uterus may be taken, my pregnancy may have ended in miscarriage, yet I am still me.
I was made in God’s image…swollen belly, infected body, stretch marks and all.
I am HIS.
When you look up at HIM, do you see with His eyes?
Do you see HIS delight in you…simply because He made you?
He loves you.
Beloved, be. loved.